thankful

seasonal thing it seems...

i was volunteering to go Aceh on the day when i was to meet my NS bros for dinner.

See Toe and Man Win.

And it was then when i realised that... i meant alot more to people than i thought i did.

After hearing about what i volunteered for, See Toe said that... he wanted me to make it back alive.
cos my craziness amused him
i balanced him

He promised he would eat curries and shit lava into my urn, if i came back from Aceh in a flask.

and i realised that i was of value to someone.

I knew i was a pal to Man Win, but he said nothing.

To a certain extend, there is an understanding between us that transcend mere words.
some things just do not need to be said.

He knew i was a berserker, doing things that even insane people would consider THRICE before attempting.

He knew.

I knew.

He didn't say anything, but spent what could possibly be my last moments on earth as happily as he could make it for me. He didn't dissuade me, but silently showed his support.

I could only assume that he was also very optimistic i would return safely.

And i thank God for these 2 army bros.

PhlegMel, PhlegSan and ChlorMel... we kick ass.

I'm gonna take time out and write notes to people... it's not a near death experience per say, but it made me realise how i could just vanish in a wink... and how words could mean so much to others.