question of the year

Would you still seek Me if there was no calling upon your life

i wanted to say yes... then... i hesitated

and i kept silent

and i thought... i wished

but i could not commit a yes.

so far... before this year... i served Him... out of duty, a sense of obligation, responsibility and the desire to see Him smile, that His people can sense His Presence when i served in the choir.

That was all i wanted. What do i want? Nothing... for myself... nothing... i want to serve.. i want for people to experience His Love... but i didn't want anything for myself. I just want to see Him smile.

And for revival in Japan.

So... it is a hard question for me... still praying about it... i wanna commit a yes with my heart mind soul body. then serve throughout the 4 corners of the world....