weariness
saw a site of one of the inspirational folks i knew
he is tired
everyday
guess he is toasted already
it is not the amount of rest.
he lost it.
his vision. his passion.
his life.
sure... console and encourage. it worketh not.
i kid you not.
been there, sucked that it, spat it out. and just rumbled along like a tank on a rampage.
ran over some people along the way... lived to regret.
that was life. accepted it, living with it. Do not wanna let it happen again.
i have taken responsibility of my life when i chose to go poly and not JC.
i looked back and regret. But i never blamed my parents.
i made the decisions myself.
I took responsibility for my actions when i publicly apologised to the teacher for misbehavior.
i looked back and thank him for his teaching. it was not easy... but he was strong to see it through.
i learnt humility.
i gotta take responsibility for my emotions.
i cannot be ran by emotions. tame it i have to.
When looking in hurts too much, maybe it is time to look out and see the beauty that lives out there.
and look up to Him who is always faithful, He never test us beyond what we can take.
i might die. but so long as He lives on, why should i care?
sucking it in and moving on.
Something hurts, but something is gonna hurt.
posted by max @ 1:30 AM
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1 Comments:
hmmm... reading thy TAGS on the tagboard, it would seem to me that you have taken the tone of the post to be accusatory.
it was not meant to be so. what have i to base myself on, to stand in the place of judgment against one such as he?
In your statement that you are praying for him, it has poignantly illustrated your care and concern for him, tempered with wisdom, for the matter indeed, is now between Him and him.
to my understanding, in the current state, only affirmation from a mentor would be of significant help, though other sources of encouragement would be good, yet i am somewhat uncertain how far that would go.
perhaps you assume i am not a friend to him? Maybe not... for we hardly spoke in the past months. but i am certainly not among those that would see him fall.
loyalty is the foundation of all lasting r/s. Happy for him that he has you as a true friend. it wouldseem atthis poin that... i would only be a spectator/extra in this play of life starring him.
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